Life had a restart option. With a difference though. Reboot should happen from a non-erasable kinda memory and this memory should be preloaded with certain aspects that you would want to store just before that cold-boot. For usage ease, these aspects should be organised into folders, which 'livers' can use discretion to name. My first folder will be named 'Repenter'. The files inside this folder will explain the leitmotif of the folder.
File numero uno:
File name : life_at_iit.screw
File size : 4 yrs
I consider myself a good example for 'a wrong person at the wrong place'. Lack of options, inablility to think clearly, whatever the reason, but after a lot of slogging I went there. Unfortuntely. Neither did I excel academically, nor was there any value addition otherwise. I just 'existed' there. My parents are proud that their son is an IITian. Few people look up to me thinking that it was an achievement. Only I know how abortive my stay there was. Only I know
how I abhor associating myself with that place. Only I know what a waste those 4 years were. Might sound a bit outlandish. But only I know.
After the reboot, I shall refer to this file quite often. I will keep introspecting with this file in hand. Am I doing what I like ? Am I liking what I do? Am I in a place I would love to be in? Am I in a place that loves me? Life after reboot will be devoid of guilt that hurt me when I tried to answer these 3 years back.
Directory structure is in the formative phase. Will be back with timely updates on this.
6 comments:
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Dei are you serious about this entire post? IIT waste a?
And why do you feel so?
You did excel academically in the first sem to put a branch change, and after that also you were surely in the top 20-25 of the class.
Its not the academics that matters anyways. Its the experience. And knowing you and having spent hajaar time with you, we surely did not have a bad time.
Josh!
What arbit?
'Only I know how I abhor associating myself with that place.' What are you trying to say?
I agree with Baada. It is the experience that matters. There were quite a few takehomes from IITM even if you feel you didn't do well academically.
Ley you should meet more people from eponymous schools to get a better idea. I think IITM was the best thing that could have happened.
This might sound harsh, but questions like 'Am I in a place that loves me?' and all is asking for too much.
C'mon maga you are stronger than that!
BTW my blog notifier is non functional. Hence didn't notice your recent posts :)
maga.. all i am trying to say is.. IIT was a wrong decision. i wasnt supposed to be there.
sam, i really cant believe u r sayin this!! by ur words im reminded of these lines by Linkin Park:
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter.
sam, nangey ansuttey u r getting v negatively emotional. cummooon sam, look @ the +ve side of things. im sure u dint get into IIT jus to make ur parents proud. u did it coz it was ur dream, wasnt it?? So y shd any dreamer repent after realizing it??
But, i also understand hw ur feeling now. the celebration of success doesnt last long, but what can is the spirit of 'never giving up'.
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